Giving love and being loved is really a wonderful feeling and blessing. But as an individual , Syam wasn't able get as love as what he had given to all, whether it be dad, mom,brother, and it be friends. Is it because the sadist in individual is rising up? No, perfectly no. The expectation he sets for each relationship is very high and commitment to 100%.
It was heart breaking when the sister from another mother in college left college as her proposal was rejected by me. Is Syam wrong in that? No. Still he feels that motivated her to have a very good life. Cant expect best friends as how they are in 15's. Married and committed makes them busy. Is Syam a failure? Can be.
First lover is always special. What if she gets dumped by thyself due to pressure from family as was not settled. Its not wrong from Syam's side , due to which she was divorced. Then why thy feeling sad for her and motivate her after her suicide attempt as a care taker being fatherless. Giving hope for her life being a semi lover, making her still feels like a girl through admiring.Commitment to 100 % and values relationship.
Never had a second thought when she(rebounded lover and one minute killer n all day) had shown that she feels for me in blood. Is it a mistake to return a letter which flooded in blood" stating i love you". Even after seeing her roaming around with her to be hubbie then, is it Syam's mistake to believe her and say "I believe you". It was not thy mistake to freak out hearing about engagement without informing a word. Heard "Possessiveness" is Syam's fault. Yea, Syam was possessive about her safety and till now with a child in hand. Commitment was in return was 10 % for 500 % given to her, as I heard Syam was time pass for her after 4 years from close friends.
Mom, Dad, Brother: Commitment to 100 % and more. But still feel mom cares for brother too much. Feels dad always cared him when my abroad MBA dreams was shattered and was to take job at the tender age for 22 , funding for Brothers education. Still Syam is selfish and bad. Yea, bad!.
Still he's introvert,he's selfish,he's bad, he's womanizer, he's not talented, he's not special,he's flirter, he's short tempered. You are hit hard through many means and may ways but:
Only word I am trying to find out is "Aham Brahmasmi"
